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I Suck

I know this blog is shit lately, and I apologize.  I don’t have any fucking time in my life these days.  I’m working two jobs (one is at the porn store, which should provide for some good stories on down the line) and I just moved to a new apartment.  Bear with me.

Update!

Here I am! My novel-in-stories of erotic fiction, Backwoods, is done done done and coming out this summer from Rebel Satori Press.  Michael has completed the illustrations, the cover is GLORIOUS, and in the next couple of days I’m going to be putting up a rudimentary promotional page on here, just to have something I […]

I Want To Be Like the Deer

Repost from old blog, 8/15/2009I was having a crappy day on Wednesday; an outcome of the extreme financial stress we’ve been having lately. I’d been so overcome by my problems, so paralyzed by the future, that I knew I needed to do something to escape. I took a walk through a field near my house. […]

Communication

Repost from old blog, 2/23/2008 Around fifteen I realized that I could use the internet to order porn films. This had the advantage of bypassing the usual age verification at a store as well as saving myself the embarrassment of trying to purchase it face-to-face with an actual person. I ordered a tape to my […]

One of the Worst Things I Ever Did

I was in elementary school – fourth grade?  Fifth?  Right on the cusp of those years when all insecurities manifest themselves, when we glom upon the perceived weaknesses of others to deflect attention from our own, when we’re at our worst.  Or maybe I’m just trying to justify what I did. The Feist family lived […]

My (Legitimate) Sob Story

I never started writing erotica for the money.  Pursuing any type of writing for the money would be, amongst many other attributes, hilarious.  I started writing erotica because it was what I was meant to do, and I started publishing it on Nifty (and eventually on this website) because I felt it was good, and […]

Fast-Food Knockout

It was Halloween of 2001 and I needed a costume.  I’d been growing out my hair for over a year and it was as big as it ever had been (and ever would be).  It was a total white-boy afro. So I got an idea.  I brushed my hair out really big and sprayed it […]

I Give Up

I haven’t posted anything new on here in forever. I’m sure there are reasons for this, but damned if I know what they are. Mostly it’s that lately I feel like disappearing, like if I could go live underground with coffee and notebooks and pens away from everything and everyone for a good year, I […]

Eulogy for the Rave Scene

Repost from old blog, 10/26/2006 I used to be a raver. I think I went to my first party in May of 1999, at an Irish community center. The last party I went to was on February 11, 2001. I remember the date because in the wee hours of that morning, my head buzzy with […]

Outside the Box

Repost from old blog, 9/26/2006 I just finished a book, The Girl in the Box by Ouida Sebestyen. I suppose it could be considered a teen novel, and from what I understand a lot of teen girls read and were freaked out by it around the time when it was published in 1988. The jacket […]