I Give Up
I haven’t posted anything new on here in forever. I’m sure there are reasons for this, but damned if I know what they are. Mostly it’s that lately I feel like disappearing, like if I could go live underground with coffee and notebooks and pens away from everything and everyone for a good year, I would welcome that opportunity. This is also to explain my (still probably temporary) Facebook suicide.
I miss the energy of this blog, though. I’ve been posting shit on Tumblr, but using Tumblr is a very cursory, ephemeral thing: you post an image or a song and a few people hit a button that says “like” and then it disappears. Not that this blog is some paragon of permanence but when I’m going good on here and saying things that are on my mind, I feel more tuned in.
So I’m giving up trying to filter my ideas and I’m just going to post a bunch of random shit. Expect some of this in the next few days.
lito
Nov 28, 2010 @ 19:38:40
yes! keep it up. i love your ideas.. and, for whatever it’s worth, taking a year off as a creative person is not only desirable at some points, but necessary. i’ve learned that if i give in to what i need, i find ways to recharge, and that’s just as much a part of the creative process as producing work.
Natty
Nov 28, 2010 @ 19:55:31
Thanks lito! Yeah, my challenge lately is finding ways to stay occupied while at the same time not getting hung up on shit I *should* be doing.
Georges B.
Nov 29, 2010 @ 02:29:09
Hey Natty,
I am following your blog silently now sind 2009 and always liked what you posted, although I must admit I liked the older ones (frome the beginning 2000er-years a little bit more).
I loved your ideas about the rave scen, about drugs and about male – male desire; my boyfriend and me are very curious about your book “Backwoods” and I hope we will be able to purchase it, since we are living in Germany.Your blog and your stories (Man, especially the Story about the Iraqui Sniper in BUTT) always inspire my fantasies and I like to come across your blog every day. I hope your are feeling a bit better in Winter now and everything will turn out good (Does that soudn cheesy? In German, people would say such things as final words )
Would love to read more from you!
Greetings:
George B. from Cold Northern Germany
Johnny Murdoc
Nov 29, 2010 @ 10:08:36
Hey man,
I’m happy to see that a blog post titled “I Give Up” ends with the warning that you’re going to be posting more. I was worried that it would be the opposite. I know that keeping a blog up can be a struggle, especially for someone who sees their focus being something other than blogging. It’s easy to get caught up in what you think that people want to see from you. Just remember, it’s your blog. It’s your name at the top. If it means writing more, write more. If it means writing less, write less.
Stay hard,
-J
Steve
Nov 29, 2010 @ 12:14:30
This is the only blog I check in with every day in hopes of new content so this is good news. BTW, I’ve been meaning to ask for some time, since I see the author listed to the right on your blog, but have you read Pawn to Queen 4 by Lars Eighner. I’ve read it twice and I think I’m gonna have to read it a third time soon. It and The Deal by Becky Cochrane and Timothy Lambert are two of my favorite books ever, let alone favorite gay themed books…
Natty
Nov 29, 2010 @ 13:56:13
Georges, Johnny – thanks guys, I appreciate it. I always go through natural cycles of interest with my blog and I’ve just been on a downswing. Winter is coming and I need to shake everything up so I don’t stagnate, so I’m doing a lot of brainstorming and so far so good.
Steve – Pawn to Queen Four is one of the only ones of Eighner’s I haven’t read. Somebody else recommended it to me recently, I’ll have to check it out. I loved “Travels with Lizbeth” and he’s pretty much my porn-writing hero, “Wank” and “B.M.O.C.” have been huge inspirations for me.
Steve
Nov 30, 2010 @ 09:58:17
Wank is wonderful!
Quiet Riot Girl
Dec 05, 2010 @ 06:19:58
random shit is fine by me. You are in my top ten blogs of 2010 I will post the list when it’s up on my blog!
Natty
Dec 05, 2010 @ 11:33:42
Thanks, Quiet Riot Girl, that’s awesome!