Losing It

by Natty Soltesz

My older brother started coming into my room at night to talk. He’d tell me about the girls he was dating, and that turned into him telling me all about sex. I knew about hard-ons and jacking off because I’d been doing it myself for the better part of a year. But he’d done just about everything with girls. He told me about blowjobs, how pussies get wet and how good they feel when you stick your dick in them, and even about anal sex and rimming.

I would be totally rapt, lying in bed next to him, listening. Once or twice I was sure he was hard, and I got hard under the covers all the time while he told me stuff. We were in different classes at school and had different friends, so I wouldn’t see him much during the day, but at night we’d have these great, long talks.

One night he came in – he never knocked – and it was really late, like 1 AM on a Saturday. He said he’d been out with a girl and he thought they were gonna have sex but she’d gotten too drunk. He seemed a little drunk, too.

“I’m as horny as I’ve ever been,” he said, and I could tell he was tweaking his dick under his shorts as I did the same under the covers.

“Are you hard right now?” I finally got the courage to ask.

“Yeah, wanna see?” he said, and pulled down his shorts. I couldn’t believe how big it was!

“Yours will get bigger,” he said. “Can I see it?” So I showed him mine and he said it was nice.

But I was totally enraptured by his cock, and I kept getting closer until finally he was like, “Touch it.” I leaned forward and took it in my hand. It was so heavy and hot; it pulsed like something alive, and liquid seeped out of the tip.

“Precum,” he said. “Does yours leak like that?”

“Not as much as yours,” I said. I was just holding him in my hand and then I started to move my hand and he was like “Oh my god yeah,” so I kept stroking him.

For twenty minutes I played with his cock and the fluid just kept coming out, making it all slick. I felt his balls and he said “That’s where your cum is stored,” which I’d had no idea about.

I could smell him, a distinct musky smell. He’d told me enough about blowjobs that I knew he loved them, and I had a good idea about how to give one. So I threw caution to the wind and took him into my mouth.

“Oh fuck,” he said in, like, a really loud whisper. He wasn’t expecting it, I don’t think. But I kept sucking on it and even got some of him down my throat when all the sudden he started to cum. Which shocked me. But I let it happen in my mouth and even swallowed some, which really turned me on.

“Oh my god,” he kept saying as his dick pulsed cum into my mouth. Then he smiled and kinda shook his head and thanked me. I stayed up all night, just thinking about it at first, then jacking off multiple times.

The next day we didn’t say anything about it, but it was like it bonded us closer. And just about every night for the next month he crept into my room late and I would suck him off.

At some point he started feeling my head a lot and sort of fucking my throat. Then he would have me get naked and grab my butt, usually right before he came. He’d told me enough about anal sex that I’d already slipped a finger inside myself while I was jacking off, just out of curiosity. And, once, I’d stuck the end of my mom’s empty wine bottle up there. So I knew I liked stuff up my butt.

Then one night he was really going for it. He had me get naked on my stomach and he was kneeling in front of me feeding me his dick and grabbing my butt hard. I spread my thighs to let him know I liked it and then his finger, for the first time, went to my hole.

It was like time stopped. I was so turned on. And all his attention went from his dick in my mouth, to his hand on my ass. He pressed his finger on my hole until the tip went in.

“You like it,” he said.

“Uh huh,” I said up to him.

“Can I try it? Fucking you?” he said.

“Yeah,” I said.

“Oh man,” he said. His dick was so hard and throbbing. “We’re gonna need something. Crisco.” He crept into the kitchen and came back with one of those big tubs of shortening. He got his cock all greased up and told me to do the same with my butthole. He was so excited, and it made me excited to see how turned on he was.

He told me to get on my back, that it would feel better that way. I lifted my legs and he got his dick right where my hole was. Real slow he started to put it in me; but when it actually went inside I couldn’t believe how much it hurt. He took it out but after a minute I told him to try again, and this time it didn’t hurt as much.

“Whoa I’m all the way in you,” he said. I reached down to feel it – the thick shaft of his dick, stretching me out. Then he started moving it, and soon he was full-on fucking me in the ass, just like he’d described it to me so many times: how good it felt to slide your cock into a tight pussy or asshole, the pleasure of coming inside. Except this time I was the one he was sliding his cock into – his little brother – and it wasn’t long before he started cumming in me. I grabbed my dick and stroked it while he shot, and just as his load was winding down I shot the over my shoulder and all across my face.

“Wow,” he kept saying as we cleaned up.

And when he left I laid there, realizing I’d just lost my virginity, or part of it anyway, and to my brother. Which I liked, in a way; and I couldn’t wait to do it again.