Repost from old blog, 8/7/2007
So I’m back from vacation on the west coast, the highlight of which was visiting, for one day, the set of Joe Gage’s latest porn film. It was a really positive experience. I stuck with the crew, which were filming five performers doing an anal scene and a watersports scene.

So there was the porn set, with hot sex for sure, but also camera angle changes and dead camera batteries and airplanes occasionally ruining the sound overhead. After filming was over I was asked – had the fantasy of porn been ruined for me? The illusion shattered? To which I honestly replied “no.” I mean, I’ve seen “Boogie Nights.” Watching any porn, I’m always aware of the glimpses of reality I can catch beyond the frame.

Maybe it’s just me, but I find it hard to believe anybody holds illusions about porn at this point. Which isn’t to say I don’t enjoy it – quite the contrary. It’s just that the will of fantasy is powerful, and will easily squelch anything that gets in the way of its enjoyment. I mean, just cause Mel Gibson is a homophobic asshole doesn’t make his “Lethal Weapon”-era ass any less hot, right? Even though you have no chance of ever meeting the guy (and if you did manage to proposition him he’d probably beat you up), the exuberance of your fantasy life still, somehow, gets your face between his buttcheeks.

But anyway.

The set was homey and everyone was friendly and welcoming. On breaks we ate cherries and Nutella sandwiches and watched “South Park.” I didn’t get an erection, except for chubbing up a little when I sat down and read the script. Shows where my interests lie. I got a certain frisson from tiny details – the way a performer slapped the sides of someone’s shaved head, for instance. But, ultimately, the proceedings were stripped of any fantasy element for me to latch on to (they’d filmed the dialogue the day before).

So why didn’t I get a charge from simply seeing real, live people have sex with each other right in front of me? After all, the experience presented me with my first view, since entering a monogamous relationship, of a real live naked man standing in front of me with an erection (who wasn’t my boyfriend). But still – it was real yet unreal.

Beforehand, I assumed I’d be more interested in watching the actual performers than viewing them on the monitors, but as the scene progressed I found myself watching the monitors more, becoming more interested in the fantasy that they represented than the actuality of the work that was taking place. I was looking at it as a writer, as if the scene was a story, focusing in on elements that worked for me, positioning the performers as characters in my mind, props.

Joe was nice enough to even entertain one of my suggestions (you can read about it on Joe’s new, improved blog). Will it work to the scene’s advantage in the end? Who the fuck knows. Certainly not me. At any rate, I sort of like the idea of manipulating people to my own perverted ends – and I only make that sound diabolical in jest. Directing seems like another side to what I’m already doing (albeit a side that I have no experience with whatsoever). I think that’s the biggest revelation I took away from the experience.

Repost from old blog, 2/11/2007

Note: Due to the continuous glut of amateur internet porn this is post is woefully out-of-date.

Amateur “straight guy” porn – the web is overrun with it. You either love it, hate it, or jerk off and never think twice about it.

I find it alternately arousing, annoying, fascinating and frustrating. The guys that produce the stuff almost interest me more than the models themselves. There’s Sean Cody, sucking cock in his prim buttoned-up plaid shirt and pressed khakis; there’s Doug & Jay, looking stoned out of their gourds and having sloppy sex with trashy models who look just as if not more stoned; and then there’s the world of Straight College Men.com, possibly the most obnoxious site out there, with its insufferable, panty-voiced director fawning and wetting himself over his models, none of whom ever miss an opportunity to express their heterosexuality, even when they’re fucking each other in the ass.

But these sites interest me much more than studio-produced porn, nowadays, because there seems to be more room for fantasizing in them. The models carry a lot of embellished backstory, much more than the typical “character” played by a porn star allows. We get a chance to imagine what the amateur porn model’s life might be off camera. We can envision them being pulled off the street, away from girlfriends and jobs.

I realized recently that I get a lot of my best ideas for porn stories from these sites. There’s a lot going on in them, and I’m less interested in what’s “true” than in what is presented to me and what I can’t see.

So here are five of my favorite amateur porn scenes.

Amateur Straight Guys – “Nate and Vance”
Two visibly drunk guys have sex. Not much to that, but there’s something refreshing about how much delight they take in it. It’s all about Vance’s dialogue in this one: to him, apparently, fucking each other in the ass is just what “bros” do, nothin queer about that.

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Repost from old blog, 12/28/2007
This happens to me from time to time. I still remember my first true porn crush – his name was Blake, and he was featured in a trashy Old Reliable rag I found in a Phoenix porno shop, during those heady first days of gay self-discovery. I thought he was as hot with his clothes on (yes, there was one shot of him fully clothed) as with them off, and I unconsciously started to dress like him. Oh, Blake – I still hold a dull flame.

But times change and my newest sweetheart is a young man I discovered the other day while trolling XTube. His name is Shane, and he’s featured on a site previously unknown to me, Dixter.com. The site actually seems pretty great, and I’ll be able to verify that in a few days since I just plunked down the money for a goddamn one-month membership. It was all for Shane, of course…sigh…

Shane embodies an aspect of eroticism that’s been on my mind lately – he’s an exhibitionist. He also shows off his ass a lot. He gets off so much on showing his ass, that in his first video, he cums pretty much spontaneously just from spreading his cheeks. Jeezus.

Aside from that, he just seems like such a nice guy…sigh…

UPDATE for 2010: I was thinking of this post the other day because I came across a new collection of Old Reliable photos, which features Blake, my old porn crush, on the cover! I need this book!

Ain't he adorable?

Repost from old blog, 10/20/2006: As far as incest porn is concerned, this post is quite outdated.

Today I was getting ready for work when I realized that some of my porn had finally downloaded. I opened it up for a quick look, and saw something completely new for the first time: I saw twin brothers having sex with each other.

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Film Edition:

A dominant man (DomMan) is forcing an unwilling man (PussyBoy) to his knees.  ”Suck my cock, boy!” DomMan bellows.  PussyBoy whines and thrashes about but falls to his knees just the same.  ”No, no, I won’t do it!” he says.  DomMan takes out his hard dick.  He grabs PussyBoy by the back of the head and shoves PussyBoy’s face into it.  PussyBoy dodges the cock, struggles against DomMan’s hand.  PussyBoy clenches his mouth and grits his teeth but DomMan is unrelenting.  And then, as if by magic, PussyBoy opens up to the idea.  He parts his lips, takes in DomMan’s cock.  And as PussyBoy bobs his head all the conflict, all the struggle exhibited previously falls away into the ether, a remnant of some hack porn writer/director’s tepid imagination…

Written Edition:

Dorm Lust
By Marty McAmateur

Martin arrived at college.  His new dorm mate, Studly McBuff, was so hot!  But…he was straight.  Martin lusted after Studly, until one day he came back to his room and caught Studly jerking off…to gay porn!  ”I’m so ashamed!” Studly cried.  ”It’s okay,” Martin replied.  ”I’m gay too…and…and…I’m in love with you.”  ”Oh, I’m in love with you too!” Studly decreed.  And they lived happily…well, you get the idea.

Straight Bud Weekly Rim and Blow

Saved from perfection only because of the gay porn playing off-camera (though I like that the presumably straight bud seems to get off on it).  That the cocksucker seems mentally impaired only adds to the mystery.

Via FreshHotness

Repost from old blog, 12/7/2006

Because I write porno fiction it should come as no surprise that, regarding porno movies, I value story and scene over anything else. I need believable characters – strong archetypes. I need creative dialogue – no matter how cheesy. Most of all, I need a hot situation, something I can sink my teeth into.

The perfect porno scene is a rare thing, but finding a truly great one can make hours of half-hearted wanking seem worthwhile. Without further ado, here are my all-time favorite porno scenes:

5) Big Guns (1987), d. William Higgins
Scene w/ Mike Henson, Mike Ryan, and Jeff Boote

Three straight dudes get a hotel room, strip down to their extremely brief white briefs, and get into the hot tub; all the while talking about bringing back “babes” to fuck and ribbing each other in a playful, natural way. They get out of the tub, where Boote finds a package of “Fundies” (which are these, not these) in Henson’s suitcase. Boote dares the others to try them on, and they do, which leads to some horseplay. “Be careful, you’ll rip my Fundies, my girlfriend’ll get pissed.” “Fuck your girlfriend!” They wrestle around on the bed until their cocks get hard. The sex progresses in a natural, unforced way, and soon they’re all fucking and sucking each other. All three of the guys are pretty hot, and the way the scene becomes sexual free-for-all (all three guys bottom) is part of what makes it so great.
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It’s as real/embellished as you want it to be…

Married, home alone

Straight guy loses a cum contest

If so, muck-crake makes the connection.

Just a reminder that the movie I co-wrote with legendary director Joe Gage, Dad Takes a Fishing Trip, is ready and available for all your self-abuse needs. I wrote the first two sex scenes: one where three guys in a motel room get into it (actually based on portions of this chapter of my story 428 College St), and another where a young punk gets worked over by his supervisor. I think the latter scene came out the best, mainly because the actors really hammed it up.

Here’s what Handjobs Magazine had to say.

Order the movie here.